Thursday, July 26, 2018

Do your dreams come true?

A lot, maybe most, of mine haven't come true. And I am not complaining. But I have come close to a bunch of them. For months I would have been thinking of it, and for quite a while been even near it, so much so to have made it materialize. Sometimes I realized I had it right in front of me and sometimes I didn't. But to the point of my opening statement, I hadn't pursued any of them.

And yet there have been so many other times when opportunities had presented themselves to me and I had taken it. Simply. Naively and Sincerely. No expectations or dreams. Just doing a job. Doing it well and right. 

And by far they have been the best kind of truths that didn't really come out of dreams.

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

What do you value more - Time or what the time can give you?

As I do, I went to a nail salon recently. And asked for my usual. The girl who was servicing me was sincere and very good (which I shall realize later). I wanted my nails to be filed round - usually they ask if you want it shaped square or round. She filed one and showed me and argued that’s what was round. I couldn’t be bothered. I wanted it neat and easy. And then she went on to paint them taking her time perfecting it. Let me tell you it was beautiful to watch. No, not the nails or the color or the technique. It was her attentiveness and drive to do it right and to her best - I don’t even suppose it had anything to do with me :). But as it were, I had to finish and be somewhere so I was getting impatient. At one point I wanted to scream ‘I don’t want it to be perfect - just do a decent job and let me go!’
And then I stopped and knew I surprised myself in saying so. 

Where I earn my bread, I recall it being referred to as QTC - Quality Time Cost. Everyone wants the best at the cheapest cost ASAP (As soon as Possible).
We so often spend time looking for quality in everything, especially when we spend our hard earned money but when you get given it in some form you are stumped - for you discover an annoying fact about yourself - you value your time more than the steadfastness of what that time has to offer! Maybe its got something to do with mortality and the limited 'time' we all have got on this earth?

Monday, July 23, 2018

Restlessness is the mother of my words

My fingers have felt numb from wanting to pen it down
My head has been exploding from holding thoughts unto my own

I went through last few years neither living nor loving
For my eyes weren't seeing or looking

While the sky seemed bluer while i rose above
The bottom felt harder when I spiraled down

I created life but just about missed it within me
There may be words to explain what it all meant 

But to me I was alive and well
Always springing forward not knowing the nature of a spring was to snap back

Everything was a resting cane that made sure i never got my balance
Lucky for me I could see it before I reached the edge

Now, all i want is for things to be simple
And the joy to be from within

And the only way i know to get there is by this
My words found their way back in restlessness 
For that I thank what has been and move to what could be

Thursday, April 10, 2014

What goes around comes around

It is an interesting thought, most commonly though used with a negative connotation, to remind you of the repercussions from your "bad" deeds. Let’s look at it this way, from a lifestyle aspect. It just says things get recycled, at least whatever can be.

'Fine Fettle' have these awesome snacks that are pure veg/fruits/nuts dried and flattened like crackers, that can be had with hummus or cheese or some such nutritious dip. And a single snack portion, a rather measly 6-8 pieces of 3cmx3cm, thin squares would cost you 3AUD (~approx 2 USD and 300+ INR).

Rewind 20 years. I used to hate going out in the hot sun to lay out some homemade flat chip-like-things to dry in the heat (I grew up in the southern part of India where there was only one season – Summer – hot and mild). They used to be made from various things from rice flour to bitter gourd to lentils - anything that can be crushed, dried and stored and later used as deep fried sides. That, if done now, would hardly cost anywhere near what Fine Fettle does. 

We used to be able to make things, although largely because of time-on-hand and lack of accessibility to readymade items like now, it did help save money. But the most unnoticed-then & coveted-now side effect was unadulterated, low-fat/low-carb/low-calorie, and most times nutritious options for meals and snacks.

We now spend more to eat lesser and lesser, and shell out even more to burn the little we ate - for the little we eat amounts to much more fat in our body now than earlier. 

Have you seen the runways recently? It’s all about lace my love. My fashion sense during my youth said lace was grandma-ish. Probably true then. And here again now, its "In". Same Difference. Its way more unaffordable than back then!

I can list quite a few like the above - Leopard print, cinched-at-waist silhouette, gathered churidhar bottoms, 'puff' sleeves, shoulder pads, marriage (yea!) ......

Back to recycling. So last 50-70 years has seen repackaging, commercialisation and trend-setting what was otherwise normal, everyday, home-made 'things'. Since our everyday is filled with ‘other’ exciting, stressful, meaningful goals.

And since I believe in the karma of circle, I'd wish to think it would go back to just where it started, in the next 100 years (maybe this time it'd be the men in their boxers, dhotis and veshtis home-making ;)).

But until then though, my friends, while we are alive, we are doomed to the Spending-Rut.

Monday, February 03, 2014

Wedding woes - Being one's own

Marriage is most beautiful (and tolerable) when you can be your own thoughts despite a surrender of sorts.
And thats the hardest to get to, though its about you, its the other that can make it happen, if at all.
While love and lust can ignite, its after all both the heads and hearts that step on it.

Rhaea: 8 years, Getting there... taking the ride, starting to love even the fuel stops, What say mr.R? :)

And did I mean the world to know - yes.
Did I not mean you to hear - no! It was a gesture, thought of as classically romantic. Else why would someone pop "Will you marry me" on a flying marquee up in the sky?! As if asking itself isnt stupid enough ;)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

I am your mom, sunny!

So my almost-4-month old looks at me
thanks for the la-la tap-tap, hey silly woman
And I am like
I am no singer
I am no dancer
I am not a clown
I am your mom!
Of course I am all that and more
BECAUSE... I am your mom!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Non Entity is Unkown and Exists

He: Why are you comparing yourselves with another woman?
Rhaea: Well I am not, but I am guessing your expectations of a woman, and maybe another
He: I dont and cant think of another in your place
Rhaea: Had I not met you, then?
He: It is now a non-entity
Rhaea: But had you not met me, you would have met that non-entity?
He: Yes, so there is someone out there. That non-entity exists!
Rhaea: :)
Rhaea's Dad: Non-Entity is nothing but Unknown; When you know it, it is an Entity; 0 gets its meaning because of the existance of 1; 0 & 1 become relevant because of the presence of something beyond it - "2"!
Rhaea: Am I now "0", "1" or "2"!!!
He: (smiles)
Rhaea (thinks): Even Silence, Smile and Subtlety can be as good a statement, as a statement itself!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Wake Up to MTR's Upma

Food for thought (this time, Food with calories, taste, look and feel - not Bach's quotes or rand's ravings)

Upma is a simple South Indian dish made of semollina/rava/suji, sauted with mustard seeds, asafoetida, curry leaves, green chillies and onions. It is known to be a quick fix dish when sudden guests show up at your doorstep (which did happen a lot in 10-yrs-back-India and does still but lesser)

Upma became synonymous with anything quick-fix, at least in the southern indian slang. Again if you are living my age and have a tamil connection you may remember the Mamootty starrer "Azhagan" where he is a hotel business man risen from scratch and called to preside over a dance performance. He begins with "Naan upma maari" = "I am like Upma" - as he would have actually been invited as a quick replacement for the original chief guest who wasnt gonna make it!

That being a little bit of insight into the simple yet fun dish that is Upma, today, a saturday and my trusted and lovely cook absconding, i decided to make something to feed ourselves - chanced upon this MTR Ready to cook Upma! Ah what a relief from Bread omlette and i loved me more for stocking it.


I am not trying to review this little one. But I think this is one good snack / breakfast item that you may want to stock for those rush hours.Not that there are many more ;)
For Rs.7/- the 90g pack serves 2 light-eaters (good enough if served with ghee and sides, taken with some juice/fruit/coffee)You just need to boil twice the quantity (as the mix you are using) of water, with ghee/oil, mix it in and cook in low flame for 5-7 mins. Voila - breakfast ready!!!
Nutritional facts Per 100g:

  • Calories - 411
  • Protein - 9g
  • Carb - 69g
  • Sugars - 1g
  • Fat - 11g
  • Fibre - 0.4g
  • Sat Fat - 8.6g
  • Monounsat fat - 0.2g
  • Polyunsat fat - 0.08g
  • Trans fat - 0g
  • Calcium - 29mg
  • Iron - 2mg
  • Sodium - 1.3g
  • Vit A - 105micg
  • Vitc C - 2mg

One tablespoon of ghee (for 90g) added when boiling would help the dish not to stick on the vessel.1tbsp of ghee = approx 15-20g has about 130-180 cals and 15-20g of fat.
Sides that go best with it: Coconut chutney, Onion/Tomato chutney, Pickle, Yogurt, even just sugar!



This is one serving that is giving me about 300-350 cals (half of the full packet + half of 1.5 tbsp of ghee) I had it with sugar, my childhood habit, piling on some 30 unnecessary calories :p But it was a happy Saturday morning breakfast!
Enjoy if you happen to try it!

Andh-a-aadi

After a hiatus!
Am I happy :)

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

O my Golden fried Onions...

Golden Fried Onions...
O thy place doth all see?
U r like the shiny sculpted body
Borne by the bold and the beautiful lady!
Slim n slender Cut
Golden n Crispy Yet Soft n Sexy
Fried to be just that!
U smell just like her
waiting to be devoured...
Sweet and full
Sharp and mmm Tasty!
Rolled up in a bed of Oil
as Soft as those thin clean satin
How shall I let you slip?

O my Golden fried Onions...
Thy place many tend not to see!

No Wife :(

Unfortunately or Fortunately I do not have a wife.
A wife to make my house 'home' for me;
fill my stomach,
reach my brains,
lick my bod
and spoil my mind!

'order' things :)
or just let me lay around
and rot on my couch.
So there...

BUT..

Well, I have a husband ;)

:-p Anddd...he has a wife like above!!! ;)

Monday, June 20, 2005

"Complete Man" ?!

He (kidding): What would I have done in life without you dear?
Rhaea (her naughty alter-ego at play): You wouldn't have become "MAN" enough...mmm…And this shall be posted too :)

He: :-p

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Mistake Mistaken - Proud to be here!

May 26, 2005.
To My Folks

Long time..."No News is Good News" eh?!!!

More Often than not, most of you would have heard me brood over joining Infosys - mainly because it is an IT company and I gel with IT like oil does with water. But as I would have often mentioned too, one major reason that pushed me to join (of course other than certain few other practical reasons) is the fact that Infosys was and is one of the few "Indian" companiesthat rose to shine like a Star in this whole world. Plus the fact that"MY" company is purely indegenious.

Though life inside Infosys opened me up to some not-so-desirable facts about the company, that I persume every company as big and huge as this would have, to be as successful as this, I had never really cursed. I have questioned, yes and been concerned if Infosys can do better to those working there...never cursed. Neither did I have reason to awe about anything cos, Infosys is a largely conservative company, with strict principles and a little olden practices. Which means they were a bit tight on the Marketing and advertising Expenditures as well - until very recently.

But today morning, I woke up to see another face of my company - the Giant propaganda in the middle of Times Square in New York (supposedly the business center of the Universe). Reason - NASDAQ invited Nandan, our CEO to open the market today, the day when Infosys' Issues ran up to more than 1 billion in Share Money and again its the first Indian company to ever attain this. My Jaws dropped! Never been prouder to have been an Infoscion!

More over here:
http://www.nasdaq.com/reference/200505/market_open_052605.stm

For once, a mistake I thought I did has proved me otherwise.
Share my Joy!

Monday, April 25, 2005

Friday, March 25, 2005

I; 'my'

I shall choose friends among men, but neither slaves nor masters. And I shall choose only such as please me, and them I shall love and respect, but neither command nor obey. And we shall join our hands when we wish, or walk alone when we so desire.
I quote Prometheus in Anthem, Ayn Rand; and adapt.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

When Nature Calls...

You just can’t say 'No'
Fe”Male”s become One
Be it sun or snow
So there you "Go"...
:)

Simply "Yanni"!

I can still feel the ecstasy when I first saw Yanni live on stage as the white curtains dropped in one go making it even grander. No - It wasn’t Live on the TV... It was LIVE...He was right there a few meters there – in front of me.

As the last stop in his World Tour 2004-2005, he had played here in
Tampa on the 26th of Feb, 2005. Would I miss that chance?
I am happy that I have had very few disappointments (with an external factor) in my life that would stay green. I remember one of them - When Yanni had performed at the Taj in
India, I think I was in my High School and I knew I couldn’t have made it anyways. I was wondering "I have missed this one good chance, am I ever going to make it?"
So the day I found that he was touring here, I was waiting for the Web portals to open online ticket booking. And the same day, I rushed to book my seats - comfortable, near but not too close and affordable.

Two of my friends working with me here accompanied me for this show. I had wanted someone who has seen me listen to and love Yanni's music to be there to share what I call my simple down to earth "lifetime dream". My friends around here couldn’t make it. The sugar coating came when my cousins agreed to come down from
Atlanta. They are my god "people" - I felt it only when I came here. (Next to my own apt, Atlanta is my second home here - My first still remains the nest in NLC).

The show was to begin
8.00PM, and it did (with a 10 min lapse which we think was for the late crowd). He played unendingly... till 10:20 PM
. No Nonsense...No "calling kids to the stage", No talking about world peace or cause, No nothing. Just pure, simple, amazing MUSIC from YANNI.

When the curtains fell, I thought I cried seeing him. Nah...I just had a glob of joy mixed with surprise and a sense of greatness stuck at my throat. All through, I didn’t move from my seat. He opened with his usual popular opening piece Santorini. (The one you might have heard in lotsa Indian TV programs as Title music - sometime back). My favorite has been "Nostalgia" and boy! Did it take me back in time - nostalgic!!!!

He had included lot of Eastern Music (from his latest albums like Ethinicity). Bringing together nations, languages and ethnicities and everyone beyond the standard borders with his non-linguistic music, is what he says he is working for. Indeed!

Anyone who had come to this concert would have left the place humming or their souls slowly jiving to the inner rhythms that would remain for a few days. He had to tease us, the crowd a coupla times in the end to make us "go away".

The only thing I took away from that concert was a book with his pictures (of this tour) and of course a "floating in the cloud" feeling. I wanted to buy a T-Shirt with his fine signature on, but they ran out of stock. No photos, No CDs.

This moment, I can be right in the same place I was - in the concert, listening, relishing and devouring each piece of his - I just have to want to be there!

Glad this chance came by, More Glad I stepped on it,
Just "elated" to have been there with the ones I love,
And "Dumbstruck" seeing Yanni,
The music would play in my ears,
For a Lifetime…

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Ambition

No one can go back and make a new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
Do not act from being hurt and end up feeling guilty.
Heard melodies are sweet but those unheard are sweeter.

Ambition stems from the base of emotions when emotion interacts with achievements or nicicities behind an achievement of others.
Ambition does not take limitation, capacity, circumstances, handicap of one while it develops iniside.
Ambition when pursued can also hurt.

I Quote My Father.

Friday, March 18, 2005

Romanticism :)

He (Chiding): “Rhea!!”

Rhea: You never call out my name except when angry!

He: (touching her hand softly) Oh dear! When do you let meI? You abode beside me…all along!

Rhea: (smiling) I shall pin this up in my blog :)

Life’s Dying Days – My Living Dreams

Born Out of a family more rich than wealthy
Driven to ask “What is Business” at seven
Yet not know how Stock works at Twenty Four
Yes, Life’s for those who believe in “Dreams” and bring it to the fore!
Dreams? I have never dreamt – funny?!
From Imaginations livid to wanting it to thinking it
It was the power of free will that worked
Yet every nerve of my earthly body and soul crying
“Things that you like the most set them free – If it comes back to you it is yours –
If it doesn’t it never was”
Yeah – The mind works in its own extra
Special Way
!
‘Love’ was not what I saw, wanted or believed in!
Yet was what my moments, more often than not, filled with.
Simple, Easy, Sub-Conscious, no pomp but Splendid.
But when it came to mine to be spilt, I sprayed it…

As much as I would want to live, I wish to produce
All my toil, muscles, body, mind and soul caught in the product
That I can hold in the very palms that started it all – big or small.
And without much dough, I am proud I can create a palm that
Can and will do it for me in the world if I don’t.
Never Mind! A Zany little girl who is more oxymoronic than
The word and the world itself, throwing ink in her dying days,
Cheerfully dreaming Truth always.